March 14, 2009


Filed under: Daily Life, Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:01 am

it’s almost every week i become sick. i don’t know what’s wrong with my body. having fever for every week. although it gave me long rest, i don’t want to be idle for so long. there are many things i wanted to do.

maybe i didn’t have not enough fluid in my body. my body can’t regulate the temperature. my friends always remind me to drink a lot of water. i did, but i guess it wasn’t enough.

the weather in few weeks back was also crazy. there were days when it become too hot, then the next day it become too cold.

today is the third day im being sick this week. yesterday i forced myself to play tennis with my friend. i was hoping that sweating can help me to recover but today im still feeling weak.

i guess i still need another day or two to recover.

it won’t stop me from going anywhere ….


March 6, 2009

red wine

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:00 am

nah … just red grapejuice sparkling …

March 5, 2009

holding back

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 11:54 pm

im still holding back something …

i don’t want to get involved into deep again because i know the consequence …

been there, done that. and it wasn’t pleasant. really unpleasant.

but i know im playing fire again.

i will win this time. not for whatever i wish but a win for myself.

american best dance crew 3

Filed under: Entertainment, Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 11:30 pm

the final … quest crew vs beat freaks …

im rooting for quest crew since the start of season 3 because they are the best … absolutely amazing …

beat freaks are good but i think quest crew still the best …

hope quest crew win the competition …

disclaimer: the photo is taken from somewhere on the web … will remove it upon request …

flipped 180 (not 90?)

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:29 am

it started 3/3 …

as i mentioned on my earlier post, i had this turn … sent out something in hope to make up what’ve been missing since not long time ago …

i didn’t put so much hope coz i know it’s kinda late but i was a bit overwhelmed by the response. it turned out much better …

and today it’s back to what it used to be … though im still being a bit reserved and unenthusiastic …

i don’t know what to expect this time …

March 3, 2009

my eyes … my eyes …

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:28 am

got something on my left eye …

it felt as if something is growing on my eyelid.

i have no idea what caused it.

today is the day …

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:21 am

wasn’t about my work. but my work is almost done though.

today i made up my mind and sent out something which i hope can mend up the things that shattered not long time ago.

no expectation coz i know it’s too late already.

but i hope it will at least ease my mind coz i’ve been thinking about it everyday.

bittersweet …

February 26, 2009


Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:00 am

today is my birthday. i haven’t got anything from anyone. but im not expecting anything coz i know there’s nothing to expect.

usually i have celebration for my birthday but i think this time im just gonna keep the celebration to myself.

i have a plan actually …

February 22, 2009

something to do …

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:48 am

something i wanted to do this coming month. with one purpose and hopefully with the right words.

been thinking about something. something i wanted to not remember but it’s always there on my mind everyday.

so this coming month i wanted to do something about it. to ease my mind.

hope everything will go as planned.

February 20, 2009


Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 9:18 pm

still confused about something … something which bothers me so long. and it getting worse, giving me headache almost everyday …

sigh …

i thought of a solution, but it’s just crazy as well …

February 18, 2009

where gone my visitors?

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:02 am

seems like im the only one visiting this blog since i changed the address. i don’t know why, but it seems that there’s something wrong with the address change. i used to receive at least five unique visitors per day, from around the globe.

should i put more pictures? should i post porn?

what else do i need to do to get my visitors back?

rambling ..

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:35 am

it’s been a while since my last post. got few things in mind but i felt lazy to post it here.

this week im kinda helpless. now im down with fever. since yesterday. haven’t go to clinic because i feel like it’s not necessary. and frankly i don’t like clinics.

yesterday i went to office, then gave my co-boss my final work. he said he want to see it for the last time before i submit it to somewhere. he said he’ll give it back to me at least this wednesday but today i got it. quite a surprise. didn’t cross in my mind that i’ll get it today.

well, not bad. not much he commented on it. i guess my work is good enough.

my target this week is to prepare another journal to be published. two at least.

sigh …

February 13, 2009

worse than ever

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 2:05 am

now the internet at this place is worse than ever.

we could hardly use it without constantly cursing the service provider (who).

this place got grand status but in reality, everything is becoming like shit.

eating and eating

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 1:43 am

it’s almost everyday this week i went out to eat at posh food outlets.

on sunday it was at seoul garden. with some friends.

on monday it was again at seoul garden. with another friends. a friend’s birthday treats, so i paid nothing.

on tuesday it was at tao. my boss decided to treat all of us (his ‘kids’) so again i paid nothing.

today it was at secret recipe. i paid all.

i know i ate too much.

February 6, 2009


Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:59 am

not exactly an encounter.

more or less like passing by.

contacted nothing, said nothing, done nothing … all nothing.

a bit upset, a bit nervous, a bit … a bit of everything.

gone …

and it ends nothing.

just a little nudge i guess. without any effect …

all fired up

Filed under: Daily Life, Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 12:40 am

drank coffee today, twice …

reason? i wanted to be fresh for the whole day to finish my work.

but until midnight i haven’t finish it all. however, i’ve done most of it, about 95% done … quite an achievement actually.

tomorrow im gonna print it all and let my boss check it for the last time.

it’s almost time to surrender …

February 4, 2009


Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 10:22 pm

still confused.

confused about something. something not bad, but not good either.

i don’t know …

February 3, 2009

in pursuit …

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 10:23 pm

… of something.

SOMETHING … something i myself don’t know what exactly. something which can satisfy me. something which can make me happy. something which can make me forget pains and sadness.

SOMETHING … something or someone. someone? could be … but i don’t know.

SOMETHING … something or a place i can go and start a new happy life. could be my hometown, could be somewhere on the globe. a place away …

SOMETHING … something or some food that can satisfy my taste buds. i love food.

SOMETHING … something i miss. something i lost. something to complete me. something to cheer me up. something good, something fun.

where is that SOMETHING?


Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 2:28 pm

complaining, whining, giving excuses … everything.

but i couldn’t bring myself to do my work until completion.

sigh …

after months of doing the same work, i guess i have become numb and lazy.

February 2, 2009

run baby run ….

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 3:25 pm

need to increase the pace … im just too slow.

now the juniors are closing behind me. if i stay on like this, most probably they will overtake me sooner or later.

need to run faster now …

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