unsure which to follow. sixth sense or else. or instinct.
i feel bad of something. i feel sorry for myself.
when in doubt, i always assumed the worst so i could prepare. prepare for the worst. prepare for the baddest. prepare for the catastrophe. i think it’s a good idea because it is less painful. by assuming the worst, getting not-so-bad reality produces good news. good news means better life.
im still hanging in between. left and right. feeling down pushes me to the left. feeling happy pushes me to the right. balanced. ready to fall into any side. ready for all possibilities.
yeah it’s good to make plans.