i don’t know what exact words to use. got something here. like a clash between dream and reality. it feels so real, yet i couldn’t really touch it. maybe im dreaming, but i know im wide awake.
im stuck. it’s a complicated thing. couldn’t describe it in words. indescribable.
i know it sometimes made me happy. sometimes it made me hurt like hell too.
feel like im standing on a balance. push me to the left, i will fell on the left. push me to the right, i will fell on the right. hanging there … don’t know until when im gonna be like this. i fall few times, but some magic put me back on my feet.
maybe im still dreaming …