August 10, 2008

What’s the deal?

Filed under: Miscellaneous — J Martin @ 10:27 pm

It’s about consciousness of self image.

I am not perfect … nor lacking of anything physical. I got hands, legs and other parts that count to be complete set of a human being called male. Just that most of these parts are not perfect, in terms of beaut and looks. I am well aware of it … and I tried to look on the positive ways. Someone may say that I got the ‘look’, but this term doesn’t really got into me. The sense of having good look never stayed on my subconscious mind. I always feel that I am just an average guy. Or perhaps uglier than average guy.

I wanted to think that look doesn’t matter. Perhaps if I could make myself as impressive as these ‘idols’ of mine – which perhaps out of the good-looking fellas category – I might consider myself as a perfect guy. I wanted to be proficient in anything possible, which I could use to sweep everyone off their feet, just like what these ‘idols’ of mine have done to many.

Above all, I need to overcome some of these ‘old boundaries’ within myself. These old boundaries have been shaping me since I was a kid and it never failed to put me back on the ground whenever I tried to ‘fly away’. But I guess these old boundaries will fovever be embedded within me, no matter what will happen to my body … Or perhaps it would change someday ;P …

I hope I would change into better person. Someone who could rely on inner persona to impress everyone. And someone who’s so lucky to have everything come to his way with his brain, not by his good look alone.


1 Comment »

  1. just a little selfish blabbering about myself …

    Comment by J Martin — August 11, 2008 @ 1:18 am

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