drank coffee today, twice …
reason? i wanted to be fresh for the whole day to finish my work.
but until midnight i haven’t finish it all. however, i’ve done most of it, about 95% done … quite an achievement actually.
tomorrow im gonna print it all and let my boss check it for the last time.
it’s almost time to surrender …
still confused.
confused about something. something not bad, but not good either.
i don’t know …
rm7.50 per serve – chicken with black pepper sauce, a small bun, fries and coleslaw …
… of something.
SOMETHING … something i myself don’t know what exactly. something which can satisfy me. something which can make me happy. something which can make me forget pains and sadness.
SOMETHING … something or someone. someone? could be … but i don’t know.
SOMETHING … something or a place i can go and start a new happy life. could be my hometown, could be somewhere on the globe. a place away …
SOMETHING … something or some food that can satisfy my taste buds. i love food.
SOMETHING … something i miss. something i lost. something to complete me. something to cheer me up. something good, something fun.
where is that SOMETHING?
complaining, whining, giving excuses … everything.
but i couldn’t bring myself to do my work until completion.
sigh …
after months of doing the same work, i guess i have become numb and lazy.
need to increase the pace … im just too slow.
now the juniors are closing behind me. if i stay on like this, most probably they will overtake me sooner or later.
need to run faster now …
blame again the crowd.
now the public washroom smells like shit … yeah shit indeed …
some of them (the crowd) apparently are not keen on flushing down the toilet after use. i don’t know what’s on their mind. it’s not that they are unable to do so. most (or all) of them are well-educated (that’s why they are here). now it seems to me that some of them aren’t that ‘well-educated’.
i don’t know the reason. maybe they want to save water. but what the hell with that? it’s not that they are paying the bills. and it’s not that water cost equal to gold.
sometimes i think that the way they live their life here reflects their upbringing back at home. but we don’t judge people, right?
sometimes it’s hard to stay longer than a minute at the washroom because of the unbearable stench. im not saying that i want to stay longer there but it’s just unavoidable sometimes. doing business, y’know …
but this is what to expect when living in hostel. not only this, but there’s a lot more ‘goodness’ to expect …
the hell of hostel …
now in progress, nadal vs federer on australian open men’s single …
update:
nadal won … 7-5, 3-6, 7-6, 3-6, 6-2 …
down …
feeling a little nervous. now the holiday is over, so it’s time to get back to work. actually it’s time to get back to old schedule. which is boring and not fun.
the crowd is back. so now it’s also time to get adjusted to noise, disturbances, discomfort, bad internet connection and all.
time is almost up. on the 20th this month, my notice will be due. 3 months.
wonder if i can make it on time …
gone going that is.
something on my mind. something i rather want to forget. something i rather treat as a mere dream. want to get past of it.
been a while indeed. found a reason to not look back.
but i have a plan. come this march and it will prevail.
gotta make a surprise.
respect and love one another.
respect people regardless of race, colour, religion, culture, sexuality, etc. we’re human, created differently from animals and other inane objects. we human can love, we human can judge and choose which is good and which is bad.
we tend to hate people who are different from us. we tend to hate ‘weird’ people. we tend to hate people who hurt us. we tend to hate people who do different things from us. we tend to hate people we don’t like.
but we all are human. we are equal.
i believe that all human being deserve to live peacefully. i believe everyone has the right to live according to own preference. i believe that we must love one another regardless of whatever criterion which divided us. human race has only one, that is human.
now, where to live?
feeling high up spirit, i attempted myself to do the long abandoned work.
finished more than half of it in less than an hour. it wasn’t difficult actually. but i dragged myself.
i think tonight i can finish it up. then tomorrow i can meet my supervisor and let him check it again, for the last time hopefully.
i lost count how many corrections i’ve done on this work. still unfinished after five months (or more).
gotta finish soon … yeahh …
congrats serena … congrats venus … congrats bryan brothers …
next, fedex vs nadal …
go go federer …
done a little cleaning today. wiped most surfaces. washed dirty clothes. cleaned wares etc.
felt like im making a good changes. yes it is. fresh start, lifting up my spirit and renewing mood.
still got works to do tomorrow. now it’s late already …
time to sleep …
im not really a smoker but that sticks are mine.
yes. really. mine.
were actually.
now im clean.
