i think this is due to marathon i’ve done last thursday …
didn’t really feel hurt yesterday, but today it felt so much … im almost unable to walk … ascending the stairs is the most excruciating task …
i thought yesterday’s rest was enough …
i guess i still need another day to rest and relieve this soreness …
sigh … but i think i’ll play again this afternoon …
can’t miss the chance …
and i already booked the court too … won’t let anyone else to use the court because i already paid it …
this morning i played tennis with a colleague …
the court was extremely wet, slippery and dull … it rained last night … we thought the court will be dry in the morning but we’re wrong …
we played still …
to make matter worse, it rained again … light rain, on some occasion … but it didn’t stop us … we didn’t even take a break …
played from 7 to 9.30 am …
my colleague hv few times slipped on his feet …
i almost slipped too ..
it was really extreme and dangerous but kinda fun …
make out … i wish i hv made out with someone today … hahaha
make up … yeah i guess someone still hv the guts to talk to me even though i freaked the hell out of () few days ago … what i did/ what i said was probably the stupidest ever came out from me … ever …
it was me who first break the ice actually … didn’t really expect to get response …
am i too precious to be discarded? *wink wink* …
hmmm …
vanilla iced drink with caramel (friend’s order), mushroom soup, vanilla muffin (not in pic), iced lemon tea (also not in pic), half sandwich (i don’t remember what kind), quarter chicken (spicy, black pepper sauce) with three side dishes – mashed potatoes, baked beans and crispy salad …
nandos vs kenny’s … i think i’ll choose nandos over kenny’s … kenny’s taste a bit bland …
i don’t know why, i don’t know how … im all healthy and fresh but suddenly i got runny nose …
something i catched from the court i guess …
im feeling hyper today … full of energy, able to partake in sport for a looong time without feeling exhausted …
played tennis with a friend from 5 to 6pm … actually all the courts are already booked for the staffs tournament, but my friend asked me to play with him for a while while waiting for the staffs to arrive … my friend is one of the staffs but he insisted me to play single with him for a while …
from 6 to 8pm i played badminton and squash with another friends and colleagues from my department … thursday, ceps sport day for every week …
from 8 to 11pm i went back to court, some technicians and staffs from my department were already there … i joined them … i didn’t feel smothered although im the only one non-staff there coz it was me who booked the court … my privilege …
now it’s 12.43am but i am not yet sleepy … i think i still hv a lot energy reserve …
ok … this is kinda deep and spiritual …
but im always wondering what is the real purpose of my existence in this world …
is it just because of the nature filling whatever is void? is there any importance of my existence? was i made to deliver a purpose? if so, then what is my purpose?
i was born and later i will die, i know … and in the meantime im gonna live and do whatever things as other human do … but afterall, what is the point?
from nowhere to nowhere … from a non-exist to exist then back to non-exist … what’s the point there?
complicated things …
watching my friends and colleagues – they are about the same age with me, some of them are younger – starting their own families made me feeling old sometimes …
im a bit curious, what made them start at this ‘young’ age? is it because of their lifestyle and culture? im not even ready to think about commitment ….
for some people it is good to start family at young age … some think otherwise … i won’t debate about it … it’s a personal preference and else ..
up now im still feeling young …
my friends aka colleagues are …
four of them are pregnant now … one is scheduled to due this coming month (she told me), the rest perhaps a bit later i am not really sure … i didn’t ask the rest about their due time … all of them are on their first-time pregnancy …
another female friend is waiting for her unconfirmed wedding date (but im sure it’ll be soon)… and another one just engaged last week – her wedding is on the next week! (kinda express i admit)…
a guy friend of mine (one of my close friends) got hitched last week too on the 20th … promised him a special gift ^^ but up today i haven’t give it to him … bad me … but i called him already told him to give it later …
on my calendar, date reserved for my friends wedding – starting with this coming 30th, then next month 19th and 27th …
oh my … kinda overwhelmed now …
when is my turn? ho ho ho …
not going to happen before i turn 30 …
my head a bit dizzy … thoughts and thoughts coming out and flowing like a river …
probably my mind a bit cloudy too … cannot think clearly on one thing …
imperfection – maybe i am wrong, maybe im right i don’t know … there’s no boundaries, there’s no exact answer, no affirmation …
i wish i could think like anyone else … i wish i could set my mind ’straight’ and not be clouded by emotions and other factors … but maybe they have their own problems too, maybe their minds are more cloudy than mine … if so, then with who am i gonna compare?
individuals are unique on their own way … and i am too unique on my own way … human beings are full of uniqueness; varied in every aspect …
am i crazy?
i guess im still sane … only maybe i hv more thoughts and awareness than ever … awareness of my existence, the aim of my life and my surrounding … i feel so trapped and limited by my own body, i hv so much things to do but only to realise not much of it i can ever make …. why? because of human limits; physically and emotionally limited …
i must be crazy …
no …
then?
i don’t know …
i initially planned to hv kenny rogers for lunch today but at the end, plan changed … so i hv nandos instead with a friend (he’s the driver hehehe) … i changed my menu though … opted for mediteranian rice and old type chips instead of fresco salad and peri chips … and a quarter extra hot chicken … plus freebies – peri wedges with dip sauce/mayo …
not really pleased coz i really wanted kenny’s … not my luck today i guess …
a friend helped bought for me new tennis racket … wilson brand, price about RM527+ (only the racket frame, not including the accessories) …. accessories include new string (RM45), new balls (RM20), new grip (RM19)…
my pocket’s thinner than ever now …
hopefully this new racket will last longer than my previous ones …
sigh … im so pro now …
yeah it broke my heart coz i’ve been using it for only a month …
did i play too hard? did i use it the wrong way? or does it mean i hv to upgrade my racket and buy a new, expensive one?
sigh .. im penniless now …
gotta quit damaging myself …
chatted with a friend just now … talked about few things, updates in life and so on … he told me he’s kinda sober somewhat now … well, he used to be a junkie minus the drugs years ago …
im kinda convinced he’s sober now by the way he chatted with me …
now i think i should learn a bit from him …
this week is the third week i can’t play tennis …
reason? staffs tournament …
and the staffs conquered all four courts as if nobody else is allowed to play …
afternoon and night, they have all courts …
this is so annoying …
damn it!
i bought my new tennis racket on Oct 19th ….
i broke it yesterday, Nov 23th ….
merely a month old …
sigh …
probably Nicol is out of the league now …
she did it again …
she just won the Cathay Pacific Hong Kong Open Women …
perfect 10 this year …
umm i guess it won’t hurt if she fails in the future … her won is more than enough already …
she’s now a legend …
yeah … sigh …
i guess i need to turn pro and buy a more expensive and durable tennis racket … kidding …
sigh … do i need to buy another new one?
this is the third racket … coming up will be the fourth …
sigh …
